Whispers II

Produced by Chris Vallejo & Mike Rosenberg
Mixed by Chris Vallejo
Mastered by Bob Ludwig
Recorded at Linear Studios Sydney
Written by Mike Rosenberg

Release date: 20th April 2015

Fear Of Fear

fill my lungs full of smoke,
fill my belly full of beer,
fill my nights with bad jokes,
told by folk full of fear,
fill my eyes with a stinging,
fill my time with wishing she was here,

fill my wide with a narrow,
fill my safe full of danger,
fill my bed full of shadows,
fill my dreams full of strangers,
fill my ears with a ringing,
fill my heart with a fear of fear,

well fill my cup half empty cos its never been half full,
fill me up paint me over like a damp patch on the wall,
leave me lying on my stomach on your neighbour’s bath room floor,
i’m only here until tomorrow any way,
i’m burning up like a fever that rages in the night,
spark me up I’m a fire work i’ll burst in to light,
cos its better to burn out then to fade out of sight,
that’s what someone told me any way,

so fill my lungs full of smoke,
fill my belly full of beer,
fill my nose full of cocaine,
fill my eyes full of tears,
fill my short with a longing,
fill my time with wishing i wasn’t here,

oh fill my past with regret,
wrap my present in brown paper,
fill my future with promises that promise to come later,
fill my heart with a stinging,
fill my heart with a fear of fear.

 

Catch In The Dark

well she calls me up when she’s broken,
says to leave my front door open,
i come home to find her smoking,
with her eyes all fragile and thin,
she’s always been hopeless at hoping,
always coped badly with coping,
and i never know when she’s joking,
she never let’s anyone in, i know i’m a fool to let her run away with my heart,
and she’ll never tire of these games,
loving her is like playing catch in the dark,
i’m a tear drop in an ocean of flames, and we’ll drink too much for a wednesday,
she’ll ask me why none of her men stay,
i tell her just what her friends say,
but it never goes down too well,
and she’ll stay hear til late in the evening,
but she’s always arriving or leaving,
she never decides to believe in,
the people who know her so well,i know i’m a fool to let her run away with my heart,
and she’ll never tire of these games,
loving her is like playing catch in the dark,
i’m a tear drop in an ocean of flames,she says if we’re single at 40,
we’ll get married and move to the country,
but i know she’ll never want me,then it’s five fifteen in the morning,
i reach for her whilst i’m yawning,
she leaves me with no warning.

A Thousand Matches

lying on a mattress cause my friend’s crazy sister took my bed away,
sleeping she looked like an actress,
in theory and in practice,
i said there’s got to be a better way,
she said,
you light a thousand matches,
when you finally set fire well you run away,
so why’d you go and do it,
when you knew that you would go and i would stay,i hit the wall in frustration the conversation had been circling for days,
she said,
don’t take it out on him,
for the wall has always been,
supportive in the best of ways,
we were laughing and crying like mad men dying in the snow,
for just one second it was funny,
that she would have to stay and i would go,i said love you know,
i love you so,
and when you love someone,
well you’ve gotta let them know,
she said,
nothings changed,
i love you the same,
but when you love someone sometimes,
you’ve gotta let them go,she handed me a stone in the perfect shape of a heart,
she said,
i’m gonna take this home,
for i know you’ll only lose it somewhere after dark,
in some faceless hotel room,
where you seem to lose everything you own,
she didn’t mean it how it sounded,
what she meant was she would stay and i would go,and she said,
love you know,
i love you so,
and when you love someone,
you’ve gotta let them know,
i said,
nothings changed,
i love you the same,
but when you love someone sometimes,
you’ve gotta let them go,sometimes you tear it all apart,
to see the wood from the trees,
sometimes you break your own heart,
to set yourself free,

i walked her to the station hesitation in our movement and our tone,
and words finally left after realising how uncomfortable they’d grown,
see what you want and what you need well they seldomly succeed to grow,
we reluctantly agreed when you love some one you’ve gotta let them go.

I’ll Be Your Man

give me one last dance,
while i still stand,
give me one last chance,
to build my house upon the sand,
give me one last hope of holding water in my hands,
give me one last chance,
and i’ll be your man,

oh i’ll be your man,
oh i’ll be your man,
oh i’ll be your man,
ohhh

show me one shining star i’ll show you the sky,
bring all your old scars and i’ll kiss them goodbye,
will you show me where to start will you show me where to stand,
oh for one last time give me your heart,
and i’ll be your man,

oh i’ll be your man,
oh i’ll be your man,
oh i’ll be your man,
ohhh

cos i never compromised,
my whole life now i realise,
that its time to make a change,
or i’ll end up feeling strange,
in the dying of my days,
when that old shallow grave is calling me

so i’ll be your man,
oh i’ll be your man,
oh i’ll be your man,
ohhh

Travelling Alone

australian man, scandinavian tan,
kicking stones round a square.
sat for a while and carved out a smile,
as if someone would care.

said i’m a long way from the gold coast.
furthest i’ve ever known,
oh and this just ain’t my home.
it was my wife’s idea, but she’s no longer here.
she left me travelling alone.

i never heard silence ring out like a bell.
i never heard silence like last night in my expensive hotel.
well, i’m loving a shadow, i’m trying to catch the rain.
but i never heard silence ’til i heard it today.

she walked out of the hotel,
i could still smell the smoke of the burning heart left inside.
she said men are all assholes
and life’s a bad joke.
she laughed and started to cry.

see, ten years with this man,
and a life time of plans,
oh, and i loved him to his bones.
now i’ve lines on my skin
and he’s traded me in.
he left me travelling alone.

well, i never felt silence hit me like a train.
i never felt silence like blood coursed through my veins.
well, i’m loving a shadow, and i’m trying to catch the rain.
i never heard silence ’til i heard it today.
i never felt silence ’til i felt it today.

David

i met him outside a hostel door
he said i’ll tell you mine if you tell me yours
i know you think it’s shifty for a man in his fifties
to be sleeping in a hostel dorm
but i used to be a welder by trade
used to work by the water where the ships get made
but no ship yard will take me now
my hands are too shaky now
i’ve spent all my money before i get paid

i said: david don’t you think it’s strange?
while you were in your dark room
how the world went and changed
looking in your eyes i think you know
that david we lost you, lost you a long time ago

ohhhhh

he leans his head against the hostel wall
said i have an ex-wife that doesn’t hear me
and a kid that doesn’t call
and every month i’m caught short
with my fucking child support
and the court says that i’m reckless and irresponsible

cause it was never part of the plan
to be a middle aged man
to be sat outside a hostel, shaking strangers hands
but i’ve drunk away my wealth
and i’m a picture of bad health
and i’m a shadow of a shadow of a former self

and i said: david don’t you think it’s strange?
for years you were walking
and how the world went and changed
i hear it in your voice
i think you know
that david we lost you, lost you a long time ago

ohhhhhh

and i said: david don’t you think that it’s strange?
while you were sleeping
how the world went and changed
looking in your eyes i think you know
david we lost you, we lost you a long time ago

Words

well the first time that i saw her
standing in the middle of the road
eyes as bright as christmas lights
wearing someone else’s clothes
i did my best to ignore her
but ignoring my best pretty soon
we spent the night all tangled tight
in an armchair in my friends front room

i said darling you know
darling you know i can’t stay
cause i’ve given my heart and my word to a girl far away
i felt weak as she kissed my cheek
and sighed when i heard her say
never knew i could get my heart broken in less than a day

oh and the next time that i saw her
must have been a year or more
face stained with mascara
shivering outside my door
i did my best to assure her
but assurance isn’t easy to give
if you’ve never been sure of anything much
and get less so the longer you live

she said darling you know
darling you know i can’t stay
cause i’ve given my heart and my word to a boy far away
i spoke soft and pretended to cough
like i didn’t care either way
never knew i could get my heart broken in so many ways

and the last time i saw her
standing in the pouring rain
hair a little shorter
but everything else looked the same
i could’ve told her that i adored her
she could’ve said she felt the same way
but we just smiled cause sometimes words
aren’t the right words to say
we just smiled cause sometimes words
aren’t the right words to say

The Way That I Need You

he’s the deflated balloon wrapped round your gate,
cut price to clear and past his sell by date,
he’ll be the fool running through the church yard screaming out it’s not too late,
and when he does,
i know that you’ll wait,he’s the drunk man with bad breath coming on too strong,
but he’s the beauty queen that strings your heart along,
and he’ll answer every question in your new age magazine wrong,
but i know you love him strong,so i am leaving for there’s nothing to believe in,
i’m just grieving for a love i never knew,
please don’t go misreading me,
i’m not saying you’ve been misleading me,
just not needing me the way that i need you,he’s the elephant in the room that never speaks,
but you dream about him every two weeks,
and i wouldn’t know his name but you call it in your sleep,
oh i know you love him deep,so run back to him like you should,
i guess i always knew that you would,
for he’s captured your heart in a way i never could,
so go on and love him goodoh i am leaving for there’s nothing to believe in,
i’m just grieving for a love i never knew,
you’re the book i can’t stop reading,
i’m the stray cat you’ve been feeding,
but the tides they are receding now it’s true,
please don’t go misreading me,
i’m not saying you’ve been misleading me,
just not needing me the way that i need you,
just not needing me the way that i need you.

Strangers

well when you’re with your friends,
but you’re lonely,
you smile a smile that’s not your own,
when comfort comes from a strangers arms,
miles away from home,

and you close your eyes to feel a darkness,
you dream of love you have known,
but you wake up instead,
in a strangers bed,
miles away from home,

though you’re in a house,
don’t mean its a home,
though you’re in a crowd,
doesn’t mean you’re not alone,
doesn’t mean you’re not alone,

and though he wraps you in wool,
you’re still freezing,
it’s been a while since you’ve been warm,
cos you’re making false starts,
with a strangers heart,
miles away from home

though he’s on your skin,
doesn’t mean he’s in your blood,
though you let him in,
doesn’t mean you’re making love,
doesn’t mean you’re making love

cos you’re not in love

cos you know my house will always be your home,
you know my heart is yours and yours alone,
is yours and yours alone,
you know my house will always be your homes,
you know my heart is yours and yours alone,
is yours and yours alone.

Nothing’s Changed

well the walls are turning yellow like a smokers tooth,
cold as a call girls smile in a phone booth,
baby pigeon starving on the side of the roof,
nothing’s changed,

sometimes words don’t say enough,
sometimes silence says too much,
too close for comfort but too far too touch,
nothing’s changed,

sun still shiny in the play ground,
water still running like a grey hound,
my heads still drumming when i lay down,
nothing strange,
we still rattle round the same town,
like two little stones in a coke can,
like two lost kids at a fairground,
nothing’s changed,

car alarms ringing in the dead of the night,
drunk man singing in the morning light,
too brave to fall but to scared to fight,
nothing’s changed,

sun still shining in the play ground,
water still running like a greyhound,
my heads still drumming when i lay down,
nothing strange,
we’re just dancers waiting in the wings,
ain’t no answers blowing in the wind,
ain’t no saint no sin,
and nothings changed.